urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar Yeah... Not really... jessie 2006-11-05T23:16:49Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:184483 2006-11-05T23:16:49Z 2006-11-05T23:16:49Z me and michael tomlinson.. were going out again.<br /><br />its so weird.<br /><br />i can't believe were togetehr again.<br /><br />wow.<br /><br />i love you.<br /><br />xx urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:184159 2006-10-31T03:04:31Z 2006-10-31T03:04:31Z It's funny. When it comes down to it, the nice guys always win! I know they say that only happens in the movies, but it's true.<br /><br />You can lie all you want.<br /><br />You can tell the world.<br /><br />You can colour it in.<br /><br />And make the lies sound real.<br /><br />You can do whatever you want.<br /><br />You can kick me.<br /><br />And hit me.<br /><br />And hate me.<br /><br />But when it comes down to it...<br /><br />He loves me. Still. <br /><br />And you...<br /><br />You have no one.<br /><br />Because everyone knows<br /><br />What a LIEING.<br /><br />DECIETFUL.<br /><br />EVIL.<br /><br />BITCH.<br /><br />You really are.<br /><br /> <br /><br />So keep lieing.<br /><br />Keep telling the world.<br /><br />Because the world will just scream back...<br /><br />I HATE YOU urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:183854 2006-09-11T00:26:26Z 2006-09-11T00:26:26Z kay, so basically - loving it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:183723 2006-09-04T23:00:39Z 2006-09-04T23:00:39Z everyones growing up except me.<br /><br /><br />theres something wrong with me. i have no self esteem and it keeps screwing me over and i won't learn. i don't know what to do. i wish i could be better. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:183324 2006-08-30T20:45:16Z 2006-08-30T20:45:16Z Well, today was my second day of work, still havn't been fired! Messed up a few orders but I fixed them so its fine. Worked out how to use the til and credit card machine on my own without doing anything wrong (apart from charging like £100 for a mouth guard but hey, everyone makes mistakes). Retards ringing up asking where their things are that they ordered the day before make me want to shoot myself in the eye but some really cute kids come in that make me smile. SO yeah, work is good.. the pay is better though. Much love ladies and gents. xxx urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:183233 2006-08-21T10:20:03Z 2006-08-21T10:20:03Z why was mischa barton parked outside my house yesterday?? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:182858 2006-08-10T21:36:55Z 2006-08-10T21:36:55Z well tour was absolutely amazing. best experience of my life, however being away for a month means a month worth of stupid things, and since i was in a different country... they were pretty weird... here we go...<br /><br />dropped my camera off the side of a mountain<br />walked into a lampost<br />hallucinated on horse tranquilizers after nearly passing out from hitting my head<br />had to have my water intake monitored the whole month after nearly collapsing from dehydration... on every hike<br />swallowed dead sea water<br />lost my sleeping bag before we went camping<br />set a paper bag on fire which spread to everything else on the table... and then the table<br />had my zebra stolen by arabs<br />broke my suitcase<br />spent all my money in 2 weeks<br />on a pair of sunglasses<br />waited for 1 hour for my pizza to be delivered... at the wrong entrance<br />referred to a girl as "a fucking cunt" whilst she was standing behind me<br /><br />thats pretty much all i can remember right now, but needless to say, my nickname became "Jessie the blonde Wand"<br /><br /><br />I LOVE TOUR 6!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:182610 2006-06-26T21:50:10Z 2006-06-26T21:50:10Z RIP. im so sorry. i miss you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:182461 2006-06-04T19:54:35Z 2006-06-04T19:54:35Z 1. Who are you?<br />2. Are we friends?<br />3. When and how did we meet?<br />4. Do you talk to me a lot?<br />5. Am I fun to talk to?<br />6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.<br />7. Describe me in one word.<br />8. What was your first impression of me?<br />9. Do you still think that way about me now?<br />10. What reminds you of me?<br />11. If you could give me anything what would it be?<br />12. How well do you know me?<br />13. What's one thing we had that was only ours?<br />14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?<br />15. Are you going to put this on your journal to see what I say about you? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:182237 2006-06-04T18:45:15Z 2006-06-04T18:50:56Z I hate the way you always look for faults in me<br />I hate the way you try to break me down so you look like your there for me more<br />I hate the way you think your so perfect<br />I hate the way you say you don't care about your appearance. Just because you don't wear make-up it doesn't mean your not as vein as me.<br />I hate the way your so fake<br />I hate the way you say no one understands you when you don't even try to open up<br />I hate the way you cry and you don't tell me why your crying<br />I hate the way you make it sound like my fault, and then apologise to look like the bigger person.<br />I hate the way you keep things from me<br />I hate the private life you live<br /><br />but<br /><br />i also hate<br />the way i can't stop thinking about you<br />and<br />the way you look out for me<br />and<br />the way you said i was your best friend even when we hadn't spoken in weeks<br />and<br />the way i miss you so much<br />and<br />the way your so perfect<br />and<br />the way you make me jelous of you<br />and<br />the way i used to wish i was you<br />and<br />the way you made me feel like i belonged<br />and<br />the way i don't know who i am anymore since i lsot you<br />and<br />the way i still love you so much even though you've tried to erase me from your life<br /><br /><br /><br />But most of all, I hate the way I don't understand a thing that happened. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:181781 2006-05-28T14:47:05Z 2006-05-28T14:47:05Z and again, anyone going to tell me whats going on? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:181547 2006-05-28T14:02:53Z 2006-05-28T14:02:53Z hmmm.. well.. i can't say that i care too much. which i feel slightly bad about beca\use i probably should. it's hard to care tho when your friends are so ugly. and by your i actually mean you, i'm not refferriing to myself.<br /><br />uhm.. well mainly i'm baffled. id like to know what happened on saturday. i know what happened today and it felt really good, but saturday?? it was liek this whole thing was pre-meditated. how brilliant.<br /><br />on another note, derby is like a millionm hours away!? and we have to be on the coach at 5.30 in the morning! i can't wait though it's gonna be amazing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:181312 2006-05-28T09:13:25Z 2006-05-28T09:13:25Z claaaaiiiiirey!! Don't worry, you'll still have mr daniels to look after you. and hendon isn't over-subscribed in any way shape or form, so if i decide last minute to come back im sure i can, and i have been considering it alot, and if i do go, i'm gonna come back and see everyone. i love you so much. you make it so easy for me to always be there for you when your always there for me. i love you!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:181176 2006-05-18T17:24:19Z 2006-05-18T17:24:19Z arrrgggh cunt i cant find Jars of CLay album anywhere! and theyre impossible to download. poopie.<br /><br />ARGH OMG TEN MINUTES LEFT! Incredible! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:180860 2006-05-17T19:06:26Z 2006-05-17T19:06:26Z im probably like the only person who looks l=really hot in the individual pictures. probably because im so pretty? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:180654 2006-05-16T17:22:15Z 2006-05-16T17:22:15Z so basically shit day. feel shit and want to hit something, everythings shit and people are so shit.<br /><br />your fucking hypocrits<br />and moody cunts<br />and over-dramatic retards<br />and if your not jelous, then why do you act like THAT<br /><br />so get the fuck over your high horses and get fucked retards.<br /><br />i love my edward. can't wait for the wedding... and the big house in radlett! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:180469 2006-04-27T21:28:55Z 2006-04-27T21:28:55Z why would he hold me like he loved me, then leave me and not even care how much he hurt me. why did it take me a year to get over him? why did one little picture bring everything back. why have i not seen him for almost a year, and suddenly hes hurting me all over again. why am i so pathetic? i don't understand this, i really don't.. hes the only one thats ever done this to me... and i didn't even love him.. atleast i never admitted it.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:180065 2006-04-22T23:59:46Z 2006-04-22T23:59:46Z <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v715/jesstarjesstar/launjess.jpg" border="0" alt="Image hosting by Photobucket"></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:179732 2006-04-05T23:53:08Z 2006-04-05T23:53:08Z thought id update just because im bored and... yeh.. i just got home from brighton. it was okay. saw the little britain show live. it was okay... it was cold. and there are a lot of chavs in brighton. i don't think i like it very much. there are some dodgy people and they scared me. i shant be going back there.. except my mum said she wants to take me and ed there when it gets sunnier so i probbaly will go back therer but if im with ed then strange people clad in burberry wont stare at me so much. i am cold. i miss ed. i actually cant see myself being with anyone else, ever. i dont even want to. i just wanna hurry up and marry him so i know its official and he cant escape, and i wont let him out of the house. il keep it locked with many many locks and lasers and gaurd dogs and maybe a forte? yes a forte should do the job.. but then all the guard dogs will drown! wait.. okay il have a small stretch of landing circling the palace, then a big wall (so the dogs dont run into the forte) and then a forte... and then men on horses with arrows and big fat machine guns. and we wont have phones or computers in the house, except phones that my friends can ring me on, and maybe a few of eds guy mates.. and his family SOMETIMES. not too mnay of eds friends tho, i dont want them poisoning his mind. maybe just blair and tom.. and leigh.. leigh is a girl but i'll make an exception for her. and also brendon cna ring, but not his sister, and mark joss and dom maybe. but that is all. and it will be a mighty palace! the mightiest palace you ever did see. its might will be more mightier than other palaces.<br /><br />i might get extensions.. but i dont have £200 lieing around, and if i did (which i will have next week) it will go straight on clothes anyway, so in actual fact, i will not get hair extensions. ignore this paragraph it is void.<br /><br />i have a head ache. i hate school. i wish ed didn't have to go back to boarding school. i like being with him so much. i miss him now even though he is at home. if i didnt have school tomorow and freddy wasnt an insomniac, i would sneak out this very minute to see him.<br /><br />lalalalalalal.<br /><br />bye bye all urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:179466 2006-03-29T21:04:07Z 2006-03-29T21:04:07Z do u ever feel invisible? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:179392 2006-03-21T21:38:00Z 2006-03-21T21:38:00Z OMG i actually made a layout!! and omg its so buff so u have to go look!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:178987 2006-03-16T19:50:05Z 2006-03-16T19:50:05Z obviously urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:178734 2006-03-15T21:23:30Z 2006-03-15T21:23:30Z im buff and shes minge<br /><br />haha! love u fluffy.. or luffy...??? HAHA!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:178457 2006-03-12T17:37:00Z 2006-03-12T17:37:00Z so i basically sat there having 20 14-year-olds telling me they can't wait for ed to dump me so they can run off with him. fuckin wiked... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jesstarjesstar:178293 2006-03-10T00:15:00Z 2006-03-10T00:15:00Z Apparently, if you find a bomb in an airport you get £50 reward in Marks and Spencer vouchers. So you can buy a new pair of knickers whilst you shit yourself.